Random Thoughts

Tonight felt like I was on another little roller coaster ride. Sometimes I really don't get  myself. Well,  when it comes to love, I really don't understand. That's why the big b is going to come in handy afterall.


 Lately I've been so moody and I think that what my love was telling me tonight, may be true. The fact that my baby, this amazing man is 1500 miles away does bring me sadness or frustration. More so frustrated because I want to build a future with him by my side but I can't until I've finish with these tests.

So, this is where I tell myself to just relax. Really I can't though. I know hes out there waiting for me and being in his arms...is like a dream come true. I have found my perfect match.


I just want to give him all my love...so much love to make up for any pain he felt. How can you not love a man who only gives love and asks for nothing in return? Simplistic... he is so simplistic in so many ways. The things he looking for are what I want and need to give. I've always wanted a real family of my own and I feel...see myself loving him growing old with him.  I feel good when I'm needed...wanted and loving him is no different then loving myself because we are like one in so many ways.

This is love....

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These past few weeks have been incredible to say the least.  I would have never imagined in a million years that  after a failed marriage, years of abuse and heartbreak that in one instant, as random as this blog post, I would have found love.  Everyday with you in my life, is like a gift and I truly feel blessed. Words cannot express the depths of my love and admiration I have and feel towards you. Every second that passes, my love grows ever so stronger for you.  From your sweet laugh all the way to your toes, I adore you so very much. I long for the day we can be together.  I too could see us love, cherish, hold each other forever.