May 1, 2011

I had a great day!! Was talking to my baby on and off, all day long.  Have to admit, he is one of a kind and a true keeper. Think we discussed almost everything under the moon...that there was to discuss and I love that about him. He's never afraid to speak his mind to me! No matter what it is!! So many things I thought I'd never find in another human being he possesses and surprises me with his past experiences and trials.  He truly has me feeling,  dreams do come true after all.  Inspiring me all the time. Wish he only knew how much I truly admire him and look up to him in so many ways. 

Everyday with him in mylife, I grow stronger, wiser. He is the perfect piece that I was missing for so long. He is the one I've longed for and had long forgotten. As a young adult somewhere along the way, I forgot the true meaning and depth of love. He brings this reminder or dreams back to me... he reminds me that there are still good hearted and honorable men in this world after all. 

 I can't help but to worry though... I'm not used to having something so real.  I'm scared. I'm really scared that somehow, he will find something or things that he is not so much attracted to. Simple things really that I know shouldn't matter and I've talked to him before but I still can't help but to worry.   I just don't want to lose him...


Oh my goodness, I really need to work on my fears fast. There isn't much time left before we officially meet and I'm growing more nervous by the minute..second. Even though he tells me not to worry and puts my fears at ease, I can't help but to be somewhat anxious or nervous.

Nevertheless I feel great that I have him and his family is wonderful!!  All I can say is it feels so good to love someone who deserves the love I have to give. I love him so much...so very much and I can't wait to hold him in my arms and start our little family together. I can't wait for the day his son... our son comes home to us.




Sweet dreams blogger!! sweetest dreams and thank you G-D for blessing me with this precious gift of true love!!

Random Thoughts

Tonight felt like I was on another little roller coaster ride. Sometimes I really don't get  myself. Well,  when it comes to love, I really don't understand. That's why the big b is going to come in handy afterall.


 Lately I've been so moody and I think that what my love was telling me tonight, may be true. The fact that my baby, this amazing man is 1500 miles away does bring me sadness or frustration. More so frustrated because I want to build a future with him by my side but I can't until I've finish with these tests.

So, this is where I tell myself to just relax. Really I can't though. I know hes out there waiting for me and being in his arms...is like a dream come true. I have found my perfect match.


I just want to give him all my love...so much love to make up for any pain he felt. How can you not love a man who only gives love and asks for nothing in return? Simplistic... he is so simplistic in so many ways. The things he looking for are what I want and need to give. I've always wanted a real family of my own and I feel...see myself loving him growing old with him.  I feel good when I'm needed...wanted and loving him is no different then loving myself because we are like one in so many ways.

This is love....

Random

These past few weeks have been incredible to say the least.  I would have never imagined in a million years that  after a failed marriage, years of abuse and heartbreak that in one instant, as random as this blog post, I would have found love.  Everyday with you in my life, is like a gift and I truly feel blessed. Words cannot express the depths of my love and admiration I have and feel towards you. Every second that passes, my love grows ever so stronger for you.  From your sweet laugh all the way to your toes, I adore you so very much. I long for the day we can be together.  I too could see us love, cherish, hold each other forever.